AGRM...

Well, well. I am sitting in the restaraunt cafe at the Double Tree in Seattle. I am here at the Association of Gospel Rescue Missions annual conference. It is a very interesting conference and an amazing grouping of believers. I actually have to run back into a conference but I will write more later. What do you think about missions?

KINK is good people...

Today I am at a sponsorship drive for World Vision at KINK FM in Portland, OR. The goal for the combined stations involved was 940 sponsorships. Currently we are somewhere around 1300. I like it when people look outside of themselves and see that they can make a difference. Thank you to Sheila and to everyone at KINK for making the difference. Most of all thank you to all who sponsored a child. Your life is better and so is a childs. You did good.

Scary & Dangerous...

I don't watch an enormous amount of TV, but I am pretty loyal to what I do watch. Last night Mar and I were sitting watching Grey's Anatomy. In the midst of a conversation between two of the charachters, the term, "Scary & Dangerous" kept being repeated. Of course this becam a little mini theme carried out during the entire episode. As I went to bed last night, the term scary & dangerous was now running through my head and following are the thoughts that I can recall from the conversation I had with myself as I fell to sleep...
We are all scary and dangerous. We all have the ability to be scary and keep people at arms length for any number of reasons. Truth be told, I think we like people to think that we are scary, more so than we actually are. I know for myself that I have and probably to a point still do struggle with how people perceive me. It is easier for me to have people think of me as hard and uncaring then it is to allow myself to be vulnerable and open. I would rather be alone than judged.
As far as dangerous goes, who doesn't want to be thought of as dangerous? I have always enjoyed the air of mystery around any person that is seen as dangerous. To be in the presence of danger and walk away unscathed is to equate oneself with the danger itself.
I will be honest, I have been scary. I have chosen to be alone and I have chosen to keep people at bay because for me it is safer. Here is the problem, in doing so, I have missed countless opportunity to be part of anothers life or to have that person part of mine. What blessing have I avoided or been a distraction to because it was easier to be scary than to be open?
As for dangerous? Well, being dangerous needs to happen more often. There are enough people being safe. We have watered down life to the point of barely existing in an effort to be safe. There are no guarantees. If there are no guarantees, every day should be filled with risk and chance. A college prefessor once told me that I should learn as if I would live forever and I should live as if I would de tomorrow.

I agree.